The Phone Call
This morning at 9:00 I finally got up the nerve to call the doctor's office. It felt a bit like that first call you make to a guy when he gives you his number and you really like him and you really want to call but you are just so nervous that you can't. You sit with the phone and his number in front of you and just kinda stare. And one voice inside your head says call and the other says
butnotjustyet! And you play this stupid game of pick up and put down the phone about a hundred times.
So that is pretty much what this morning was like.
I finally called. I picked up the phone and dialed the numbers. And then I hung up. No not really! God, I would hate to be dating in this day and age. I used to do that. Call and then lose my nerve and hang up. You just can't do that with caller ID. I am so glad I do not have to date in The Caller ID Age!
So I picked up the phone. And dialed. And when the voice on the other end spoke so did I. I stated my name, reason for calling and my referral. The doctor I requested is currently only seeing newly diagnosed patients. Are there really that many? I wondered. That's truly frightening. I could get an appointment with her partner. NEXT WEEK. Argh. There was something sooner but it was at the end of the day and I would have to deal with all the terrible traffic and then worry about who would be picking up the kids... and I said no. What an IDIOT I am. Seriously. So now I force myself to wait even longer to learn that this is really most likely nothing but since I don't know that I will continue to worry my ass off? And quite literally too. Four pounds have mysteriously disappeared. No please, no need to look for them. My 4s are fitting again! Bad news is, the boyfriend jeans might have seen their last day...
I hang up the phone and write Tuesday, October 20th -- 11:30 in my date book. (I do not do Blackberries... I need and love my pretty paper date books!) And then I stress. And stress some more. And more and more and more. And then I can't stress because I have to get dressed and take Christopher to a play date, come back home, quickly make lunch for the other two and head back out to pick up Rebecca's cousin to bring her back here for a play date. And empty the dishwasher and sink and vacuum up Alexander's room. And then bake some banana chocolate cupcakes. And let them cool and go pick up Christopher, come home drop him off and bring their cousin back. At 7:00 I make a quick dinner for the kiddos and my day is officially over. And I can breathe.
However, sometime in that time frame I talk with my friend Christine. On Facebook via private message. She tells me I am stupid to have not taken that sooner appointment. She is right, as I am an IDIOT. I tell her I will call back to see if it is still available. And I do just that. The phone rings, a voice answers, I start to talk and this is how the conversation ensues... I hope that you can keep up.
"Hi, I have an appointment to see Doctor SoandSo next Tuesday but there was something available later this week and it turns out I can take it. Alexander please be quiet, I am on the phone. Sorry about that. Alexander I will be down in a second. Yes, yes, yes they do have radar don't they? I mean every time I pick up the phone someone needs me. I have three children. Yes, I want to switch my appointment is that 3:30 still available? No, of course not. That was hours ago. Is there anything sooner? Anything at all? I have no diagnosis... we are trying to work on that, er rule that out? Alexander, please wait one second honey. Yeah, I have cupcakes I just took out the oven. They are staring at them and drooling. But they are too hot to eat. I stuck miniature peanut butter cups in the middle as a surprise. Yes, thanks! I don't want them to burn their tongues. That's a great idea! I have three. You have something this Thursday? 9:45? I'll be there! Thanks so much. You too! Bye!"
So here's the good news... boyfriend jeans are too big but there are plenty in my closet that fit again... I don't have that much more of a wait... the cupcakes turned out really well... Alexander fell asleep in the car on the way home this evening. I put him to bed in his clothes... I had a peaceful night... I have just 2 more full days of waiting! I'm telling ya, I have never been so excited to have a strange woman cup a feel!
So that is pretty much what this morning was like.
I finally called. I picked up the phone and dialed the numbers. And then I hung up. No not really! God, I would hate to be dating in this day and age. I used to do that. Call and then lose my nerve and hang up. You just can't do that with caller ID. I am so glad I do not have to date in The Caller ID Age!
So I picked up the phone. And dialed. And when the voice on the other end spoke so did I. I stated my name, reason for calling and my referral. The doctor I requested is currently only seeing newly diagnosed patients. Are there really that many? I wondered. That's truly frightening. I could get an appointment with her partner. NEXT WEEK. Argh. There was something sooner but it was at the end of the day and I would have to deal with all the terrible traffic and then worry about who would be picking up the kids... and I said no. What an IDIOT I am. Seriously. So now I force myself to wait even longer to learn that this is really most likely nothing but since I don't know that I will continue to worry my ass off? And quite literally too. Four pounds have mysteriously disappeared. No please, no need to look for them. My 4s are fitting again! Bad news is, the boyfriend jeans might have seen their last day...
I hang up the phone and write Tuesday, October 20th -- 11:30 in my date book. (I do not do Blackberries... I need and love my pretty paper date books!) And then I stress. And stress some more. And more and more and more. And then I can't stress because I have to get dressed and take Christopher to a play date, come back home, quickly make lunch for the other two and head back out to pick up Rebecca's cousin to bring her back here for a play date. And empty the dishwasher and sink and vacuum up Alexander's room. And then bake some banana chocolate cupcakes. And let them cool and go pick up Christopher, come home drop him off and bring their cousin back. At 7:00 I make a quick dinner for the kiddos and my day is officially over. And I can breathe.
However, sometime in that time frame I talk with my friend Christine. On Facebook via private message. She tells me I am stupid to have not taken that sooner appointment. She is right, as I am an IDIOT. I tell her I will call back to see if it is still available. And I do just that. The phone rings, a voice answers, I start to talk and this is how the conversation ensues... I hope that you can keep up.
"Hi, I have an appointment to see Doctor SoandSo next Tuesday but there was something available later this week and it turns out I can take it. Alexander please be quiet, I am on the phone. Sorry about that. Alexander I will be down in a second. Yes, yes, yes they do have radar don't they? I mean every time I pick up the phone someone needs me. I have three children. Yes, I want to switch my appointment is that 3:30 still available? No, of course not. That was hours ago. Is there anything sooner? Anything at all? I have no diagnosis... we are trying to work on that, er rule that out? Alexander, please wait one second honey. Yeah, I have cupcakes I just took out the oven. They are staring at them and drooling. But they are too hot to eat. I stuck miniature peanut butter cups in the middle as a surprise. Yes, thanks! I don't want them to burn their tongues. That's a great idea! I have three. You have something this Thursday? 9:45? I'll be there! Thanks so much. You too! Bye!"
So here's the good news... boyfriend jeans are too big but there are plenty in my closet that fit again... I don't have that much more of a wait... the cupcakes turned out really well... Alexander fell asleep in the car on the way home this evening. I put him to bed in his clothes... I had a peaceful night... I have just 2 more full days of waiting! I'm telling ya, I have never been so excited to have a strange woman cup a feel!